Emma is bomb

Emma is BOMB.

:) <3

The sun comes up and now you have a chance again.

Have you ever really missed someone, with every ounce of your being you wanted them here with you? Have you never wanted anything but to know that someone who's gone is proud of you?

Pop-pop, I wanted you to be there with me as I grew up. I want you so badly to be proud of me. I want you to tell me that you're happy with where I'm going. I want to hear your stories, I want to smell that familiar smell, I don't want things to be like they are right now. Once someone dies, that's it. You never have a say in it. That's the most difficult part of it. Knowing that there's someone you love, who you'll never get to see again. They won't be there for some of the biggest moments of your life, no one new will ever get to meet them. That's the worst feeling ever, because you just want them to see you. You want to tell them your stories, and let them know how much they really mean to you. But you can't. 

There's no point to any of it. There's no point to living in fear. There's no point to living in sadness. But sometimes you just can't help it. Sometimes you have to be scared, and sad. Like now. I want to feel scared and sad. I want to miss people. I want nothing more than to see so many people right now. I want to sit and cry while I listen to sad music. Right now Killing Loneliness by HIM is playing. It reminds me of so much. It reminds me of all my emo days. All the hurt.

Sometimes I like to hurt. I like to cry. I like to miss. I like to fear. I like to remember.

Remembering makes me hurt. It makes me cry. It makes me miss. It makes me fear. Sometimes that's what a person needs to refresh themselves and keep going. So much gets held up in a persons heart and mind that it needs to escape every once in a while.

I'm hurting. I'm crying. I'm missing. I'm fearing. I'm remembering all the things that make me who I am. I'm remembering all the people that shaped who I am. I'm gonna list off those people.

Mom, Dad, Shelby, Shaymus, Austin, Liam, Lilly, Pop-pop, Grandma Dot, Molly, Grandma Barbara, Tim, Zoe, Thea, Avery, Telschow, Emma, Deirdre, Shayla, MK, Tessa, Nick, Chloe, Sally, Leo, and there are more people but it's 1am on a school night. I need to sleep.

I feel good.

Ex oh ex oh, <3

Izzy

The lightning hits my chest, but the shock is so routine for me these days.

Yo yo yiggity yo!
I'm in summer school right now. It's insane. I should be doing math work I think, but I gotta ask the teacher how to switch the thing to quarter 4. But he's busy, so here I sit! They've trapped me here until 1:30pm. My schedule is different now. This upsets me very very much.
After this, I get to go to Nick's house and hang out! That'll be really really fun. I miss them peeps.
Okay, I figured out how to do this math shit. I've got it down pretty much, but not totally. That's why I'mma wait to take the quiz. I gotta figure this outtttttttt. I'll ask Austin later. Like, when I get home from Nick's, at 9 or something. We're gonna make a movie soon. >:] It's gonna be amazing. AH-MAZING I TELL YOU.
Hmmm. I haven't really done anything today. SInce they changed my schedule, I have to be here at 10:10am and I leave at 1:30pm. So this morning when they told me (and my friend Tyanna) I had almost 2 hours of free time, and no money or anything. So I sat outside. Then I sat inside. I listened to my iPod and wrote some random stuff and watched people. It's kinda weird, I know, but I like to observe things. People, mostly.
I feel like a freak for that.
I drew all over my hand. It looked really good when I did it yesterday, then I did a new one today and I don't really like it.
God DAMN this school is cold. It's like, a freezer. I can't wear dresses or shorts or anything beacuse it's so cold!!! I gotta og now, though. I'm off to Nick's soon soon soon!!!!!!!!!!!

xooOXOoxOXOOXOO
Love, Izzy

There's a fine line between flying and falling....

So I just got this handy dandy little thing where whenever I put a blog up on here (like I am now) it throws it into a note on Facebok! It's one less copy+paste job for me to do! It's on the Facebook site if you want it or something... just go into the "Notes" application in the sidebar and look around in there for it. Yeah.

So today was my first of 16 days in summer school. I walked in there and felt so... alone. It was weird, everyone around me looked so careless, it was rather strange. Once I got into my class, I saw a shitload of people I knew and was fine. I have 2 classes, and get home by noon, so it's not bad at all. It's not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. My algebra class is all online, which makes my life soooo much easier. Maybe I'll get to posting a blog once in a while in there??? Look out for that. My science class is pretty damn boring, but that's alright. I think I'll be okay for 15 more days. Did I mention school is only 4 days a week??? HOORAH! I saw a lot of people today that I hadn't seen in a while. It was nice. It felt like normal school again. I don't know if that's good or what. Maybe it is.

So Zoe is in Sweden seeing all sorts of hot blond skinny jean wearing guys! She's getting me a jar of Swedish dirt! I am so excited!! And a picture of a hot guy. :P Hot guys=ftw!
Let's see... tomorrow I think I'm going to Nick's to hang out and watch some movie he got that's supposedly really really good, but now I'm going to Target, and listening to Cloud Cult. Check dem out.

xoxoXOOXOoxOXoOXoXOooXOoXOOoxo
Love, Izzy

What fuels the magic in the meantime?

There is so much to think about.
So many things. Have you ever noticed that? Even during the summer, there are so many things to think about. It's just that, during the school year I have to think a lot more about... well, school. But now I can think about people, and religion, and LIFE. People think that school prepares you for life. I think that school tries to hold onto our lives for us until they think we're ready. THat's how it makes me feel. I remember one day in Holocaust class, my teacher got mad at this kids, he was sleeping. Just taking a nap, during her boring lecture about Schindler's list. It is so much easier to just watch the movie, instead of telling us the whole movie and then watvhing it. ANYWAYS, that's another blog. So this kid is sleeping, and she's all "Wake up! Stop sleeping through life!" and it got me thinking, "Is this life? THIS is LIFE?!" I feel like I need more out of it. If that is life, well, gosh, why would I even want it? That class is SO damn boring. It makes me want to drop out, which I technically could do, but it would take a buncha legal stuff and stuff. Plus, I need my friends. I need them there with me. I'd die alone. For realz. I love those people.I've been thinking so much lately, learning, more than I've ever learned in school. Every single summer, I get to the point where I regain my love to learn. I LOVE LEARNING. School makes learning boring about 85% of the time. This summer, I've learned direction, how to observe in detail, the effects of caffine on the human body after no sleep, and I've been learning about people. I am learning. This blog is actually serious? It's INSANE!
Anyways.I
'm gonna go play Wii.
Byebye!

This some craaaaaazy shit

It is 2:22am. I can't sleep. I'm watching COPS.
These kids are IDIOTS. Holy goshes. Some shit kids are trying to pass off couterfeit money. They're like, 10, and bawling their heads off. It makes me sad. Dude, why are they so messed up? It upsets me a lot.
Anyhow, I can't sleep! If my mom finds me up at this hour on her computer, she's going to kill me. Zoe was begging me to update my blog, so here you go, Zoe!
My brain is keeping me awake. Or was it that Diet Coke that I chugged? (Sorry, but this kid just cimmited a federal felony, and his mom is all "He's gonna be grounded." and it's like, dude, FEDERAL FELONY. Whatever though.) So I'm hanging out with Zoe today! And we're gonna dye my hair and shit. It's gonna be fun. I can't wait to change up my hair, cuz I am so bored with it! Frikin, no one is online. People actually have some sense and are aleep. But where am I? I'm thinking and writing, and blogging, and watching TV. My Dad isn't home, so I can be up. He's with my aunt, who has down syndrome, and she can't stay alone for nights, so he's with her. I don't know how many nights he'll be gone. But I'll see him during the day. And I'll see mommy for nights, until she goes to sleep. THe TV is talking about Battle Of THe Bands or something.
Whatever.
I gotta try to sleep. Maybe I'll go up to my room instead of trying to sleep on the couch. But oh, infomercials are starting! I may have to stay down here.

XXoooOoOxooxoXOOXOoOXoo
-Izzzzay! is really tired.

Captain Bringdown is eating the pizza, muthafuckaaaaa.

I actually am. It's not a metaphor.

*ahem* Long time no blog.

It's been over a week, according to my handy little blog post/comment/view box over in the bottom of the page!

So today was a pretty fun day!
I got up at 8:30 and got online, then got ready to go to practice. I biked there, and we were all wearing dresses today! We planned it, it wasn't like an accident or something. But that did happen once. Anyways, we all went inside and talked and blahblahblah before we started practicing. Then we ran scenes and Grant got mad and was like "RAWR TAKE LUNCH." Then we felt bad, then Zoe got there and she showed us her swimsuit, and we cranked da tunes outside. Then Nick called me and I talked to him about what we were doing later that day. Then we went back inside and ran more scenes and it was long and tired, then people couldn't shut up and Grant got mad again (totally don't blame him!) and then practice was over. Then I went outside to go to Nick's and he calls me like "We're walking to Southdale! We're seeing a movie!" And I didn't have money so we decided to hang out later. Then my phone rings again and Nick's like "Okay, yeah, we can pay for you. We're walking down 66th! Go there and we'll meet you!" Um, okay, totally not good with direction. I just shut up and biked. I finally got to 66th without getting lost. I was confused for a while, but I got it. I got onto 66th and went down to the Hub. Then I called Nick, and they ended up getting picked up a few blocks away from me, like, a minute before. He said to just keep going straight and meet them in Southdale. So I did. I finally got there and was so insanely happy. Then I met them in the food court. They were all eating, and Nick tried to pawn off his food, then we didn't want it, and Chloe was all "Bitch, I bought you that and you should finish it!" But he didn't. Then Leo threw a bredstick at Chloe, and we named Nick "Tits McGee" which made me and Chloe laugh a LOT. We laugh a lot. Then we went into this videogame store, cuz Chloe wanted to buy a movie. Then we decided to return the movie tickets and buy movies and watch them at Nick's house! So on the way to return the movie tickets, Chloe and I ran ahead of the boys, and I guess they were walking and saw these girls who looked exactly like Chloe and I, but they were wearing Very Sexy brand lipstick from Victoria's Secret. Then they were all, "Dude, who are these two guys following us? We're not Chloe and Izzy! We're Jessica and Marissa! If we were Izzy and Chloe we wouldn't have this makeup on, because they're so sexy that they don't need it." and then Jessica and Marissa went into the arcade and we arrived. *nods* That's what happened. Then we returned the tickets and dragged Nick into Victoria's Secret to squish the push-up bras. He wasn't even uncomfortable. It was funny. Then we bought 3 movies and left. I (unfortunatley) had to bike back to Nick's. But Leo assured me that they would wait for me before they started the movie. When I got to Nick's house, Leo answered the door, and said they were playing GTA4! I asked if they were at the fun fair, and he said "Well, you could call it that." Then I walked into Nick's room and saw that he was getting a lap dance in the strip club! Talk about quality entertainment. But it was more entertaining when he ran around shooting all the hookers. Isn't that sad? Then we got done with that and started watching The Prestige. I have this really annoying habit of talking during movies, right, and I was driving Leo insane, cuz I kept doing it just to annoy him! Sometimes it's just reflex, but sometimes, just because it's funny, I did it to make him cringe. Then he pretended to stick a sock in my mouth, and I was like "Uh what." And Chloe was like "He means, stick a sock in it." cuz I was babbling on about kitties. ^.^ Those kitties were cute, though. Then the movie was done. I liked it a lot. It made me kinda sad at some parts, but then it was very good. So it's okay. Then we started watching [insert movie name here] (Help me out Chloe or Leo! I cannot remember the name of that movie for the life of me! It makes me upset!) and then we were eating pizza. I hadn't eaten since lunch (except Zebra Cakes) and Leo took the last piece of pizza! I asked him very very nicely for a bite, but nooooo, he's gonna say "Your mouth is already full of words, cuz you keep talking. STOP TALKING." Then he ate the pizza all slow, taunting me. >:( Do not want. But he took my plate into the kitchen for me, and so I forgave him. Thyen we decided to go to Pearl Park and SWIM in the kiddy pool. Bwahahaha. So we were about to leave and then Leo is talking about how I was "eating the pizza" which turned into another form of "chomping the chicken wing". :) It's pretty much a bad thing. So they were all saying "Wow, Izzy, you really ate the pizza this time." and stuff. Then Nick said something all crazy and I told him it didn't make sense, so he said "Get with the hipness Captain Bringdown!" Then Captain Bringdown turned into, not only my nickname, but the main enemy of Cookie Barf up Woman, the superhero Chloe and I created. It was amazing. Then we were talking about how Chloe could kick Nick's ass, so they started fighting, and Chloe and I ran away, and stuff. Then we went swimming and I went home! I wanted to stay later, but, alas, I could not.But it was fun.
Long blog.
Yay.
Oh, I forgot, Leo told me that I have to practice watching movies and not talking.
Pshaw.

Love, Captain Bringdown

PEE PEE WOWTAH.

I had a fun day! I haven't written a real real blog in a long time!

If I keep writing blogs, I guess I'll be taken over by aliens or some shit like that. I don't know! It's kind of weird!

So my day started with a really fun play practice, excpet I'm really tired from it. We learned a new part of our dance, well, it was like two new parts. It was fun! Then ay lunch Thea had a total freak out cuz there were ants crawling on her. She scremed, then Will was mocking her and squishing ants with his fingers. She didn't think that was very funny. And then Zoe got there! Which made it cray-zay! It was nutty. She makes things totally insane. Then we had to go back inside, and we ran around for the first scene, and then we went to Uptown!

It was fun, we met people there and had a good time. Then Emma and Dee went away and I couldn't find them, and everyone was leaving so I left. Where did you guys go?!?! D: I feel really bad for leaving like that. But you never called or anything. Where were you?

Then we went to Sally's house and ate brownies (vegan ones) which were really good. And then we started walking to Nick's house, then we stopped at this totally badass park! First we climbed on this rope thing, and then we went on the bouncey teeter-totter thing, and then Andre left while we were on that, and then we played on this little music box thing, and then we started walking again. So while we were walking, Leo was jumped over garbage cans, and EVERY GOD DAMNED RAILING he saw. Then he was mid-jump over a garbage can and Nick goes "Recycling bin!" and he landed on a recycling bin. It was pretty funny. Then we went to Java Jacks and got food. I was nice and paid for everyone. My horoscope said I'd feel generous. Then we kept walking, and I was biking, then we parted ways about 2 blocks from my house and when I got home, I changed my mind and caught up with them. I scared the shit out of Damian. They were walking on the other side of the barrier that's on the sidewalk, cuz of the construction. Then Nick and Leo were making me nervous cuz they were climbing all over these cut down trees. Then Leo fell and got hurt. I told them to be careful, and they didn't listen! Tsk tsk. Then we were walking some more, and Leo's all "Whoa, I'm falling off the edge of this cliff thing into a construction site! Hahaha." and he was going down, then he couldn't get back up so he slid down. Talk about making me nervous. Then he ran back around and up. Then we remembered these little flyers we got in Uptown about a "10 second cell phone movie" contest. Then I suggested we film Leo rolling down the dirt and being illegal. They all dug it. It took a while, but eventually he rolled down again, with the camera in his hand. That didn't work so good, then he did it 4 more times while Nick filmed him. Then Damian really had to pee, and after going around and around in circles about it, with the help of a little tricking, we got him to pee off the side of the cliff dirt construction mound dirt thing. It was funny. Then Leo rolled down again and we left. Then we went to Holiday while Leo got a game from his friend. We were comparing Nick to Nick Jonas. We decided that if Nick and Joren had a baby, it would be Nick Jonas. *nods* Then we were walking more and I found a dinosaur in the dirt and we named it. Then we went to Pearl park and hopped the fence into the kiddy pool. I got in and so did Leo, then we found a squirt gun that was broken. Then Leo dove in and got totally soaked, then I did it. We were splashing Nick, but he was wearing his new pants, so it was understandable that he wanted to stay dry. Also, he said that the water was "Pey pey wowtah". It's pronounced "Pay pat wah tur". Then they were saying things in a weird voice. "Car" turned into "Cawr." Which sounds like cow, and stuff. Then we got out and had a discussion about nipples. It was heart to heart. It was making me laugh. Then I put my shoes on and we started walking to Nick's. Then Leo was throwing the dinosaur! I told him to stop and he said they were playing a game called "throw the infant". But the dinosaur is 6 billion years old. Soooo not an infant. Then he got lost, after they threw him into someone's yard and we couldn't find him. Then we went into Kowalskis and there were no free samples. Poo. Then Leo went home and so did I. It was really fun.
Yay. I left some stuff out, but I'll add it later. I gotta sleep! <3

YAY ZOE!

ZOE IS LOVELY. SHE HAS NICE STYLE. CONTRARY TO THE THOUGHTS OF SOME IDIOT. NAMED LAMEIAN.

YAY!

God I feel for you, fool.

I figured out one thing that really bugs me.
Parents shaping their childrens minds on opinionated subjects before they're old enough to understand them. This thought popped into my head today when I was at my friend's house.
I was in the basement with her little sister in her room and we were playing with toys! We were looking at the stuff in her closet and we came across this egg carton. She said "Oh! It's my eggs!" (She's 4 years old, so she said it in a funny voice.) so I took them off the shelf and we looked at them. "I got these at church!" She said. She pulled them out one by one, these small plastic colored eggs, opening them up and telling me about what was inside. She opened up a pink one, inside was a carved nail. "This," she explained "Is what they put Jesus on the cross with." She pretended to stab it into her hand. She opened up a blue one and took out a little cross. "He was on a cross like this one." She took out another one, that had a little tiny crown made of sticks in it. She started to tell me a story about how they made Jesus wear it, and it hurt him or something.
She would tell me all about the little things in the eggs, and she didn't even realize what she was doing. From the time she was a baby she's been forced to go to church and learn all these things without even realizing that this would forever be a part of her life. She'd continue to attend church, she'd do her community service in the nursery, become confirmed, and she'd be something that she never agreed to.
I love her family, and they're all great people, but that breaks my heart. I don't know how anyone could do that to a kid. I just... blah. I don't know. It makes me sad.

Now you're at about one million- FUCK.

So yesterday was pretty bitchin, or should I say, it was pretty ASS-HOT SPANKABLE.

Yesterday was the last day of school, and all the fun started at lunch. Deirdre and Emma planned a picnic for everyone, but it was pouring rain so we had it IN the school commons. We were all sitting on blankets on the floor, just like a normal picnic! It was so fun. So then we were talking to Nick and we were like "Yo, is your mom getting that cake that she said she'd get???" Then Leo decides to call her. So he ran to the band room so it was quieter and when he gets back we're like "Is she getting it?" and he's like "No, but we compromised and she's making SLOPPY JOES! Cuz I know Izzy doesn't like them." But then I was like "HA! I love sloppy joes! Jokes on you, byotch." I didn't really say that, but I said that I love them. Then after school, I went on the bus and we were changing the names of the contacts in Leo's phone. Joe was "Joe Conway" then he was "Hoe Congay" then we decided he could be "Gay Gaygay". "Nick Petree" changed to "Dick Penis." and "Damian Skrade" turned into "Gaymian Scrotum". Can you tell I was with all dudes? It was entertaining, none the less. We met up with Andre, who then randomly left. Once we got to Nick's house we were sitting in his room and then decided to go get an ice cream cake because sloppy joes don't compare to a cheaply made ice cream cake!!!! So while we were walking it started pouring rain. I didn't care, and wanted to just keep walking, because we'd all be soaked either way, so we did. Then I was talking to Leo about this movie that he wants to make, and then he jumped on Nick's back. Then I was walking with Nick and Leo and Damian, Julius, and Jorin (I don't know how to spell his name! I feel so stupid!) got ahead and then the light changed and we were stuck on the other side of the street. So once we got to Dairy Queen we wanted something written on the cake, we were gonna write "Gay Gaygay" because that's just entertaining, but thought that that might insult people. Then we were gonna write about how Joe isn't ass-hot spankable, and Damian wanted it to say Dongs, but in the end, we ended up with a cake that simply said "U MAD" and it was beautiful. Then Damian wanted Chili dog things, so we were outside waiting for him, and we were un-intentionally standing around this dudes bike and he's all "My bike is a centerpiece!" and then he asked about Leo's scar on his neck, and he said something about a shard of human skull or something, I don't remember completely. And then Julius is all "Nick, you smell like shirt!" and the dude was laughing and he's like "Man, I wish I was young again and smelled like shirt!" and then he started biking away and then yelled "YOU SMELL LIKE SHIRT!" and we all decided that he could be in The Suspenders and randomly say "Duuuuude" in the songs. Anyways, we were walking back to Nick's with the cake and thought we should go to Leo's and get Rockband so we could all play it. On the way, we decided that Ass-hot spankable and FUCK should be terms in the metric system. (I'd like one FUCK of milk, please.) So Julius, Leo, and I went to get Rockband. We were in Leo's house and we were discussing building a fly saucer. We put Rockband in a trash bag and taped it up real good, cuz of the rain. Leo thought I might want to visit Pork Rind, and I did. So we went to see him and Julius was talking about how we could give him little rockets, and make him say funny things when you squeeze his butt. I love my friends. Then we went back to Nick's and ate cake and played Rockband. Then we went to get more cake, and then Julius and Jorin left, and Nick went into the freezer, and he's all "Um, I think there's a birds nest in the back of my freezer." and I looked and I said "I think that's hair..." so we pulled it out and it was a Brat Doll head, on a giant chunk of ice. We took it outside and smashed it. Then we went over to the bridge over the highway and waved at people, when Nick had the brilliant idea that we moon people! I automatically excluded myself, because I was wearing a dress, and Damian didn't participate, either. So they did that and no one even honked or anything! Then we walked to Target, and on the way there Leo tried to knock over an outhouse, which didn't work. Then once we were in Target, I was stuck with the boys in the video games for a loooong time, then we went to look ay clothes, and Leo continued his long quest of trying to kiss Damian. Damian said "No homo in Target." and then Nick and I were looking at belts while Damian and Leo went to play with toys. We were picking out the best belts, and we found this totally badass one with a first aid belt buckle thing. I liked it a lot. Then we looked at toys and left. When we were in the parking lot, the boys started jumping through this cart rack thing, then they made it into a game of "Horse" but instead of making baskets, you gotta jump through the thing all cool. Then I called my mom and she's all "THERE'S STORMS COMING SO GO HOME KTHNXBYE." and so we left and we were running, cuz it started raining and thundering and lightning-ing and then Leo and I were talking and he was like "Did you ever think about how scary weather can be?" Then we were all holding hands, then Leo and I broke off into a skip. Then we stopped and Leo and Nick were holding hands! It was just insane! Then we had to run through the forest and Nick was all "We gotta run, so the faceless people don't get us!" and I was really scared, then Leo said that eyeless Oprah was gonna get us! And then I was REALLY scared, then we went into Nick's house and sat around, watching Damian slash people's limbs off on some game demo. Then Damian left, and Leo and Nick discovered each others talents of Nick being able to fart on command, and Leo burp on command! It was so so so so so so gross. But it was really funny, none the less. It wasn't as repulsive as I made it out to be. Then Leo left and Nick fell asleep, then I left.

THE END! :)

Today is a winding road.

I'm sorta freaking out here, dude.

Tomorrow is the end of my Freshman year. Holy shit.

So much has happened, I've been doing the same thing, class to class, for well over 150 days. Do you know how hard it is to break that kind of habit?

This is like, wow. Things have changed so much.

I'm just kinda freaking here. It doesn't feel like the end of the year.

I'm really happy, and really really sad right now.

I love my life. Like, a lot. But I'm gonna miss being a Freshman!

Whoa.

WELL WHERE'D YA JIZZ, MAN??? ON THE TOILET SEAT MAN!!!!!! (WARNING: VERY VERY LONG BLOG.)

lololololol.

I had a long long long day, and I'm soooo tired, but I gotta make sure I write it all down before I forget it. Well, technically I'm typing. (Seeeee Leo, I even do that annoying thing to myself, where I'm all technical about shit.)

So, from the beginning.

THE DAY OF THE SUSPENDERS FIRST SHOW!

I got up at 8:30 and took a shower and ate then biked to Nick's. When I got there pretty much everyone was there. So Chloe and I went into the basement with all the dudes and they were playing this cover. So we were like, "Dude, let us play Jenga like we did on Thursday!" So we played a rousing game of Jenga, then decided to use the blocks to build stuff. First, we built houses that were totally amazing, then we made this island. It has trees, a hut, a dock, a boat, and a surf board. Then we got a polly pocket girl and made her be Nick, and we got two more to be Joe and Conner. Then the giant lesbian Barbie that Madeline and I made a while ago came and the Polly Pockets were running away, then as Joe was swimming away (The Barbie smashed the boat) he drowned. Then we decided that that was actually Conner, and it ended up being Al I think... but I'm not totally sure. So then we re-built the island and got each band member a little action figure/doll. Plus Han Solo and Luke Skywalker were there, too. Then we made them each be doing something. So, Leo was in love with Han Solo, who was with Luke Skywalker, and Luke and Han were on the roof and Leo was all distressed on the ground, James and Madeline were in a tree (funny because of stuff that's happened at previous practices), Chloe and Nick were on the dock, Joe was on the boat, I was sitting in a tree because I'm badass like that, Conner was also in a tree, and Andre was chillin on the side of the beach.

So blah blah blah.

Then we left for the show. In the car we were trying to teach Nick "Pure Imagination" from Willy Wonka, but he basically refused to learn it. I kinda know it, and Chloe knows it. Leo knows it better than anyone. So we got to the church, where the show was at and we went in and then Chloe, Leo, and I went exploring. We went up to the balcony and there was a sign that was all "Don't fall off the balcony please." and we were laughing at it. Ha.

So then we were just hanging out and then there was this badass open mic, so we're like "Pure Imagination!" and I ended up having no working mic, and laughing too hard to sing at all. I did sing the chorus, though! At the beginning, Leo got up there and he was like "Okay, now, everyone, close your eyes. Make a wish. Count to three." Then started the song. He ended up kneeling on the ground singing passionately. I was amazed, honestly. That's guts. But he's used to being the center of attention. It was beautiful, though. I applaud him. *claps*

So then The Suspenders played their set, and it was amazing. Chloe and I held the bongo drums on The Car Chase Song (aka Song Number Six) and it was fun. Then we went to the Mercado Central and got food and stuff. Then The dudes ditched us because of a mis-communication. So we went back to the church to watch Diving For Illusions (Who are totally amazing, by the way. They had a great set!!!!!! :D ) We were all sitting on the balcony thing with our feet hanging off. It was Chloe, Nick, Leo, Andre, Sally, Sean, Dana, Maren and a bunch of others including myself. Then Sally and I were tickling Chloe and she was having random convulsions and it was funny. Then Chloe, Sally, Leo, Nick, James, Madeline, Joe, Dana and I went into this little room, and were lighting candles, then we left. And then it was Joe's set and Chloe and Sally and I went outside, then came back in to get pizza. It ended up being Chloe, Sally, Leo, Maren and I sitting in the grass making "That's what she said" jokes. AND "That's what Chloe said" jokes. Those are funny. Soooo, then Sally, Chloe, Leo, Nick and I were in the car on our way back to Nick's house and we were combining our names. When you put all our names together you get Nichloesizzleo (Nick-Clo-sizz-leo) and I think that that sounds amazing!

When we got back to Nick's, we hauled stuff into his house, then played Twister. The thing about how we play Twister is, we end up not using the spin board thing and just calling out whatever will make people fall over! At one point Leo said "I feel like a monkey!" When he was in a monkey-like position, so for the rest of the game we were asking each other what animals we felt like. The best ones were Koala and Flamingo. Neither of which I understand.

Then we straightened Leo's hair and he was being a big baby about the straightener. Then we washed it because he hates straight hair I guess.

THEN (*Not sure why caps. It just seemed appropriate. Like the *s I put...*) we went outside and had a water fight, cuz we fixed Nick's hose. Leo, Nick, and I were against Chloe, and Sally. Then Nick's dad brought us McDonalds and we gave up on the water fight. Then Maren, and Chantal got there! That made things more fun! We just hung out outside. We were eating all the food and the Conner arrived! So Leo ate One McChicken thing, two double cheeseburgers, and a whole "sack" of fries. I swear, I was about to vomit, watching him eat all that.

So we were just hanging out and Damian, James, and Sydney got there! We had this idea to make a human pyramid! We tried like, 6 times, and it didn't ever work. We always got to row 3 and fell over. But it was fun every single time. Some good stories came along with that. Well, not really. It's just fun to say that we tried to make a human pyramid 6 times. And when Chloe made a face print in the ground, it was kinda funny.

Then Chloe, Sally and I laid in the street and almost died. But we didn't! Then everyone came over and we went into the field! At first we were all spinning, then had a huge game of Ring Around the Rosie. Then we ended up playing "Gay Chicken". You basically have to get with someone of the same gender and get as close to kissing as possible, first to pull away loses. Amazing, right? So we got this brilliant idea that Leo should go up to Nick and play with him for the billionth time, and pretend he's gonna pull away, then kiss him. So he did. It was basically the funniest thing ever, because Nick was really surprised. Chloe and I are pretty good at that game. We were like, rolling in the grass and nobody noticed us. Well, Conner did. Which was nice. I felt like someone was finally paying attention to our LOVE. CHLOE AND I ARE IN LOVE. NICK, GIVE IT UP.

;)

Then we went back to the house and got more bug spray and Maren, Chantal, and Sydney left. Then we went back into the field and got to the top of this hill and stood around talking and getting in all all the 8th grade gossip. All of it was about sex. So then, Damian's all "I have a story!" and went something like this.

Damian: So this guy got a hand job from his girlfriend in the bathroom. ANDANDANDANDAND (Okay, he didn't say it that many times, but it adds effect...) HE JIZZED ON THE TOILET SEAT! 

Everyone else: *erupts in laughter*

Nick: How did you even find that out?!

Damian: He was bragging about it!!!

Leo: *sarcastic* Oh yeah, hey guys, I got a hand job, and I JIZZED on the TOILET SEAT man!!!!!

Nick: Maybe it was like, he was bragging to his friend, and his friend's all "Where'd ya jizz man?!" and he's all "On the toilet seat, man!!!!!!" :D!!!!!!

So we were saying that all evening. Then we walked back to Nick's around 10:45 and sat in his room looking at the year book and picking out who's hot. Then Leo left and about 30 minutes later, came back! He forgot his keys and no one was home. Or something. I was really tired, so I'm not sure. I'm literally falling asleep while writing this. 

ANYWAYS! He was reading a comic called Squee! and I was reading it kinda, and there was this one really good one (idr what it was) and I said "Hey, that's a good idea for a book or a comic or something! Wait, it's already a comic..." Further proof of how tired I was. Then we were discussing how when something happens like, twice in a day, such as someone putting grass in there mouth, it seems like they always do that certain thing. And we were talking about how I mix up Leo and Nick a lot, and about how midnight is technically the start of the next day.

Then Chloe's mom drove me home and I was pleasantly surprised with cupcakes! Yay! It's my mom's birthday, so yeah.

And now I really need to crash. but I had a really really really really really really really really really really really fun day. I probably forgot some stuff, but it's almost 2am and I'm really tired, so I apologize.

Love, Izzy

There's music in my soul!!!!!

In insane amount, too.

Really.

Yesterday when I got home from Nick's, there was no one else home. I was watching TV and then a commercial came on. I started singing the jingle (I'm not sure what it was. NAU maybe???). Then I couldn't stop singing. I sang and sang and sang. I couldn't stop! I sang everything and anything that popped into my head. I was singing Agent Ribbons, My Chemical Romance, Evanescence, Motion City Soundtrack, The Shoe Shiners, The Suspenders, Panic at the Disco, The Academy Is, Strata, The Used, Paramore, EVERYTHING! There was so much music in me that I paced around my house belting out tunes for almost 45 minutes. I don't know why, I just felt like I needed to sing. It was kinda weird. Now my voice is tired out. It was worth it, though. I just have so much music built up in me. Singsingsing. Singing makes me smile. :)

Anyways, I made a new song, and you can hear it right over HERE !!!!!!!!

There's lots of music in me, so stay tuned!

Me and you just singing on the train, me and you listening to the rain...!!!!!!!!!!!!

Long time no blog, eh?

Not much has happened really. It's the last FULL week of school. Not too much longer and I'm done being Fresh meat!

I had a pretty good day. School was as normal as it can be. Which is not very normal in most people's minds. Everything went the way that it usually does, though.

I got picked up and got home early, then biked to Nick's at the speed of light, just to find that my peeps went to get ice cream! So I called Chloe, then texted her, then texted Leo, then called Chloe, then called Leo. No one answered. Finally I decided to bike around, then ran into Andre! On my way back to Nick's I saw my group of buddies walking across the field. I yelled at them, then Leo started running. I really don't know why, because I wasn't mad at him, but I decided to start chasing him on my bike! Long story short, I ended up falling down, while he laughed at me. Thanks, Leo. Needless to say, no one came to my rescue. >:( Then I tried to put my chain back on (which had fallen off) and was too lazy, so I went to Nick's and sat in his room. Then Nick and Leo were sticking things into the fan. The bad practiced, and they sound fabulous! Chloe and I made Ramen. Oriental Ramen tastes like Asian people. Lolza. We discussed some songs that the dudes were playing, and guitar solos and stuff. We had ideas. Then we were talking about scat solos, and animal noises for The Car Chase Song. Also, we made Leo make car noises. Then we were hanging out in Nick's room. We found Chloe's baby, the Barbie torso. And we talked about making life sized, talking Chloe dolls! It was amazing. Then I went home.

Oh, I forgot!

I was watching Beauty and the Geek and they were kissing a mannequin.

:) It was entertaining.

It's in the photograph

Good evening, ladies and gents. It is now time for my daily update on the good day I had!

So school was blah until 4th hour when our Spanish class went to the Mercado Central and hung out there. We were walking around and it was really fun. It was Grace, Rio, Zoe and I most of the time. I never thought about how much I'm going to miss that class. There are so many different personalities tied into one. I love those people, no matter how annoying they can be. And trust me, they can be REALLY annoying. But you have to be there to feel the *love* that's in the room (or hate for all human population, should I say?).
Then we came back to school during lunch and were hanging out with people. Leo got his shoes stolen while he was sitting with Nick and Damian. Then Donovin took it and put ketchup on it and threw it in a garbage can. He's kinda mean.
Then after school, I went to Nick's house (surprise?!) and we were hanging out, then Chloe was very very desperate to get Ramen, and we ended up going to Leo's, getting bongos, walking around, making $75 cents, then Chloe and I were sorta lost, then we went to Nick's. Then when we got there we were in the basement. I was playing the drums with the broken drum stick, and that didn't really work. Then we were in Nick's room reading disturbing comics (SQUEE, and Jimmy the Homicidal Maniac or something...) then we ordered pizza and watched 4 or 5 episodes of Scrubs which is totally fucking hilarious, then I biked home.
All of that was nice except the getting lost and the biking home. Yeah. ^.^

This weekend shall be fun, too. Only 8 more days of school! Weeeeeeeeee!

xoxo
-Izzy-

"Yeah, well, you know, this is called HOW TO EAT POOP. Cuz YOU eat POOP!"

Good times, good times...

So I had a really good evening once again.

I went to Nick's after school, and we were watching Hot Rod, and looking at the year book. The Maren, Sally, and Dana go there! And they got Chloe and smashed a watermelon in the drive way. Then they were eating it, and I find that rather disgusting. Then Leo was shooting me with compressed air out of Chloe's brother's gun. I got angry and was holding the gun so he was incapable of shooting me anymore, until he PINKY SWEARED (It should be "swore", I know. Sweared looks so much better, though.) that he wouldn't shoot me anymore. It was totally legit! Then we went outside and he was shooting people, and waddaya know, he decides to shoot me! He swears he shot between my legs (When he said that, I laughed like the immature person I am.) BUT HE DIDN'T AND HE SHOT ME IN THE LEG. So I was chasing him around, then I fell, and Maren got it on film. Thanks, Maren. It was totally stupid looking, too. Then I got ahold of the gun and couldn't figure out how to make it shoot so I decided I'd just hit Leo with it! It seemed perfectly logical at the time... then I came up with a totally badass video game idea where, instead of shooting with the guns, they just beat people with them. Then people laughed at me. Someday I WILL make millions off that shit, so you all just wait for that. You'll be sorry. SO SORRY.

Now Leo and I have to have a fist fight, because when he was hitting the gun with the shovel, he broke it, and Chloe was all "LEO WILL NEVER FORGIVE MY BROTHER! I mean, wait, no! GAHHH." And we were laughing. So then Chloe was mad, and Leo was crying, and James was hugging him. It was intense (like the circus).

Yeah, it was fun. Who do you think will win in the fight? I vote on myself!!!!!!

:D Surprise surprise! Hahaha.

Then I came home and had pizza, it was pretty good. Also, I have the Barbie leg! I win!

xoxo

-Izzy!

RAWR.

q1 ghbgfESPANOL ESPANOL SPANISH.

I'm in spanish class. I finished my work, and got sat on by Zoe. She was resting her bottom on my shoulder. It wasn't as comfotable as I would've hoped. Grace is very very hyper right now. The word search is stressing her out to the point of total breakdown. It is very entertaining, if I do say no myself.

I met my husband (Ryan Ross), and Brendon Urie last night.

This blog is lame.

And me.

I'm outta here.

ZOE WANTS TO TO TLK ABOUT HER SO HERE I AM> LALALALA> GETY OVER IT ZIHRDFUIOBVFRSDFF!

So the story goes.

Memorial day weekend. It was eventful! Makes me happy.

On Saturday I didn't do much of anything. We got a digital TV converter box thing, so I watched this show about sandwiches across america. It was pretty interesting. I didn't know they made pig ear sandwiches. *shrugs* It was special. On Sunday I went to Nick's house, and hung out for a lot of the day. Chloe and I took a really long walk around Nick's neighborhood. It was really hot, and I found this little Simpsons Chess piece, and these pretty flowers. So we were just walking along and I saw this weird looking box thing in the street. I went over to investigate. I found out that it was a big "Crave Case" from White Castle. Which is basically 30 small burgers in a cardboard suitcase. White Castle=really really gross. So I opened it up to see if there was any food in it. There was 30 little box things to hold the 30 little burgers that weren't in there. The person who ate them must've been very hungry. I decided to take it with me, just because I could. I was carrying it around while we were on our way back, through the field, and I found a golf ball. We decided to put all my "treasures" in the box. When we got back to Nick's, we left it outside. We went inside, and said "We found treasures and put them in a treasure case!" Everyone ignored us. Lameeeees. Then Nick's mom found it and Leo got blamed for the whole thing. He didn't care, though. Thank you for taking all the blame, Leo. You're a true friend.
Later I ended up at Chloe's house, with Nick. We had a geek fest! First we were reading graphic novels, then we went downstairs and put on a Star Wars record. It was intense. We were all dancing and shit. Then the little minchkins got home. Oh dear. They are quite a handful. It was totally insane. Then eventually, Nick left, and Chloe and I made these amazing videos that are amazing. Unfortunatley, on Youtube, "amazing" is not a category. This made us very upset.

I had a good weekend! I think this week is gonna start off good, because tomorrow is band practice, and that's fun no matter what! Woo!
And my mom just walked in the door from a trip was on. I'm off to give her lots of x's and o's.

Have a good start to your week people!

<3

Wisconsin is boring, in my opinion, so I don't feel like I want to go there right now.

I enjoy being Donald Trump.

Now I'm home.

My brother's playing that one German song on Guitar Hero 3. He thinks it's funny, but I'm not understanding the humor. Then I stopped to ask myself, do I ever understand him? Answer being; very little.

So, I didn't do anything after school. Not really a surprise. Everyone already had plans. I found out that I had to be home anyways. Mom left on a trip to Wisconsin with Jeremy. Wisconsin is boring, in my opinion, so I don't feel like I want to go there right now.

That last sentence made about zero sense.

I found out that I have this really weird habit of going on Myspace, or Youtube, or Facebook, and go to the comment/message things and writing big long comments/messages and then deleting them. It's kinda weird.

There are a lot of things that I don't understand recently. Guys, gals, birds, dogs, panda bears, whatever. Usually that would be super-depressed-sad-PMSing for me, but I'm pretty happy lately. I don't understand. But I'm rocking out to some badass music here, so I'm okay.

I really want to make a video. I feel like it's been too long since I have. It has been a while since I've made a good one. Like, a long while. Maybe we should make one at the next band practice, because that would be fun. We can go into the forest and stuff. But what song...hmmmm.

This is going to be a thought process. Anyhow, I'm going to stop blogging now. It's kind of taking over my brain or something.

Adios amigos.

Izzles McFizzles

The Birds and the Bees are flying in the trees!!!!

I'm starting to think that they put the little "we're watching you" thing at the top of my screen just to scare me.

I have two new favorite songs. They are:
The Birds and the Bees by Patrick and Eugene
and
Eleanor Put Your Boots On by Franz Ferdinand.
I recommend both of them. They're very enjoyable.

Let's see... what happened today...
Well, I'm in 6th hours, so school isn't over yet. Meaning, I haven't done much of anything yet. Except school stuff. That's not exciting. Well, I guess it could be, but that's beside the point. Today has been pretty un-eventful, so I don't know why I'm writing a blog about it. I got to school, we didn't do anything in gym. In Holocaust class, I read my shitty ass book to the class and got an A- on it. I was surprised, honestly, I didn't think I did that good. I couldn't find that much information. But that made me happy! Algebra, teacher was a bitch, as always. SHe is so damn bitter. It drives me insane, she acts like she hates everyone and hates her job. GRAH. She should retire. Spanish class was fun, just because it always is. I could never lave that class, I've fallen in love with the fun times we all have in there. Yeah. It's funny. Our teacher randomly spazzes out. It's so hilarious! Then I went to lunch outside, and messaed around with people. PORK RIND IS STILL LOST and people are mad at Leo. But I'm not. Sally, and Chloe are, I think. Mistakes happen. But I do miss Pork Rind. THe rest of my classes were boring, except for Cemecia filling her mouth with salt in science class. I swear, I have never met anyone stupider than her. *eye roll* She said she wanted to cut off my boobs and fry them up. She has some problem in her head, I swear. I'm not doing anything after school, but I really want to. Some people are hanging out somewhere. I'll have to find out where.
I'm in a really happy, chilled out mood right now. I keep listening to my two new favorite songs over and over and over again. They really are good!

I gotta go, it's time to get out of this place. Or "blow this joint" as the young ones say.
Damn 7th graders.

-Izzy!!

Lalala, lalala, lalalalalaaaaa!

Gooooood evening ladies and gentleman.
I had another good day. I bet you didn't see that one coming. No one could.

So, here's what went down today. I went to school with Pork Rind('s body) and handed it off to Leo. As much as I love that little guy (Pork Rind, not Leo) he can drive me insane. Well, not him exactly, people talking about him. Honestly, people act like it's weird to carry around a small burned panda corpse, and talk about how it was alive once. NOT WEIRD.
Anyways...
So I handed him off to Leo, then got him back, then gave him to Leo again and now he's lost. I repeat, Pork Rind is lost. If you happen to see him anywhere, please PLEASE let Leo or I know. Please. So, then school ended and I went home, then biked to Nick's house. It was a nick3 mile bike ride on my new (old) bike. And it's actually my size, too. So it wasn't like my so called "clown bike" from last year. Then I got to Nick's and everyone there was playing The Pokemon Master Trainer board game, and some Orange Box on the side. I watched them, learned some new dance moves, told Joe not to die (he listened!), messed with Chloe, and hung out. Then Leo, Chloe, and Sally left. So it was Joe, Andre, Nick, James, Madeline, and I. We hung out, then Joe left, then Andre left, then James, Maddy, Nick, and I sat around and talked about Star Wars. Then we went to the forest and talked about it some more and broke some of the tree, and then I miked home to find that my mom bought me a giant jug of iced tea.
I chugged some. Now I'm here.

The end.

Prok Rind, Creeps, and Spray Paint.

I've found a love for the song "You Wouldn't Like Me" by Tegan and Sara. It's just a really good song.
Today was pretty fun. I got a hell of a work out. I have to get on the bus, walk 6 blocks home, get on my bike, ride to Nick's house, and today when I was going home I got lost probably 6 different times. It was terrible. We did some fun tagging at The Base. It was really fun. It wasn't tagging, more like art. Except Al, being a stupid head and wasting our spray paint writing "Suck my dick" like an idiot. I have Pork Rind in my arms right now. I can't tell what's going to be done with him. It's a secret. Joe was really hyper today, and it was funny. He was jumping from these hay bails and I said "Don't die!!!!" and he said "I'll try! *laugh* That rhymes. Don't die, I'll try." Then he was laughing. Earlier Madeline, Chloe, and I had gone to the base and there was this weirdo guy asking us if we were straightedge and shit. He was talking about smoking pot and we were getting really freaked. He was like in his 20s. Some responsable 20 year old, eh? I'm not going to be like that. I'm gonna set an *amazing* example for kids. :) Hopefully.
This morning was intense, getting Pork Rind from class to class without getting him stolen. I had to manuver my way out of the school so I didn't get jumped for him. Sally and Taylor were after him/me. But we're okay now.
Godspeed. Remember that. It might just save you.
*fist air*

xoxo
-Izzy

Taken over by the fear

Well, it's happening.

Entering high school, and in all the years before it, adults lectured me about how my friends are going to change-for better or worse- and we're not going to be as close as we always were. I thought they were crazy. My friends, drift from me? Pshhhawwwww, yeah right. But that's what's going on. It's okay, I don't mind it. We're all doing our own thing, and it's awesome. Freshman year seems like the one where people find their people. The ones they can hang out with, and whatever. I don't know. It's just so weird how I denied it and it happened. Failure for me. 

Anyways, it's the early morning and I don't want to go to school. Blah fuck.

xoxo

-Izzy

That's why we make a good you and me

Today was fun. I've had a lot of fun days lately it seems like.

So around 2 I went to Nick's house for practice, which I allegedly missed. When I got there Nick, Andre, Chloe, and Conner (Connor? Connar?) were there. Then Conner, -or, -ar, and Chloe left. Then James showed up. We wanted to go outside. We called Leo who was busy, Joe was busy, and Julian was busy. So we headed out to get some sunlight on our own. We were walking into the field and ran into some people who are Leo's cousins or something? Anyways, one of their dogs kept randomly running up to James and barking at him. It was funny. That dog hates James. We left the field and decided to walk North, because we could. Then we turned and started going West and then we saw Conner -er -ar, who said he had homework to do, but he was lying like a liar. We talked to him and then continued on to Ace hardware to see how much spray paint costed. Little did we know a) we had no money and b) you have to be 18 to buy spray paint. Alas, we left. Andre was biking behind us when we were crossing Diamond Lake right by Mayflower Church and James, Nick, and I got to the bridge and then Andre yelled for us. So walked back over to him to realize someone had hit him (With their car, not with their hand). So this really nice lady stopped to see if he was okay, and help us and stuff. Proof that there are good people in the world and not everyone is mean. At first the lady who hit him was real salty about it, but then got nicer. Eventually police got there and the lady who hit him got a ticket. He's okay, as far as I know. Then James' dad picked us up. Then we were joking about how Chloe always gets mad that she misses everything, and she missed something else. Then I was forced to scare her and Leo by texting them that Nick and Andre were really hurt and shit. Now I feel really bad about that. They didn't seem to mind when we told them. First we told Chloe, and once we were doing it to Leo I felt so bad that I broke the story and told the truth. But I still feel bad. Then James and Andre went home. So Nick and I were at his house, and his dad drove us to Home Depot to get Spray Paint. Then we went back to his house, and ate a shitload of those little mini donut things that taste like wax, and watched Extreme makeover Home Edition. We were laughing at it a lot. It's so cheesy. The people were like, "Oh, we've been through a lot, you name it, we've been trough it." So we were like "Did they go through a mass murder? The black plague? etc." and it was funny!

And then I came home. Isn't it funny how all of my stories end with me going home?

Yeah. That's what I did today. :)

Meet the cast!

I noticed that I mention lots of people in my blogs. You people who read them (Like, the two of you) might not know who they are, so I'm going to tell you.

Meet the cast:

Zoe- I met Zoe in 2nd grade, we've been buddies ever since. She attends South with me.

Chloe- I met Chloe this year! She and I have a music project, and she also goes to South.

Nick- I met Nick this year as well, in Uptown. He's in a band called The Suspenders. And he sucks. :)

Leo- I met Leo this year, too! (this is getting fairly repetitive...) He's in The Suspenders as well, and also in a band called The Shoe Shiners. And he goes to South.

Porkrind- Porkrind is a panda that Leo found in Nick's basement and now he's dead. We're on a mission to find the mad doctor who killed him. <3

Madeline- I met Madeline this year as well. Guess where she goes to school! Hahaha. She hangs out at band practice and we have a fabulous time.

James- Once again, met him this year, goes to South. He's in The Suspenders, too.

Andre- I met him this year, at band practice. He's in The Suspenders! Yay!

Blah. I'm bored.

Long blog...

I had a really fun day! Or, more like fun evening.

I went to see my good buddy Leo's band play  a show at this awesome little record store called Eclipse Records. I got there early because the flyer said it was at 6 when it was really at 7. So around 6:30 I saw Leo and we were hanging out. We kept looking at really scary records. Some records have terrifying covers, such as Janet Jackson.

Then, finally, Nick and Andre showed up. Nick was talking about a movie by KISS that I'd like to see sometime. It sounds funny. Then we went to watch the first act play. They had a song about dirty sex, and STDs, and children in parks. It was kinda weird... and they also read The Rainbow Fish to us. But they didn't finish it. That book is epic. I have it. I used to have a little stuffed rainbow fish to go with it, but I lost that a long ass time ago. ANYWAYS.

So we were thirsty, and Leo couldn't find any water backstage, so we went to this corner store and got drinks. I got a bottle of Coke, Nick got two vitamin waters, Leo got a can of coke, and Andre got a bottle of pop. I don't remember what kind.

Then we went back to the record store to watch the next act, and they were really good. Then The Shoe Shiners played! They killed it. Leo was making the face, and it was making me laugh. They had a really fun set, and I got a set list. It's amazing. I feel so special for receiving it. I don't remember who gave it to me, but that's okay.

After that, Leo did all his packing up and we went to Wendys because Nick had to pee. But we forgot to tell Andre. I don't think he really cared, though. We were skipping on the way and some dude in a car yelled "Stop skipping you queers!" I think that was directed at Nick and Leo. Then Nick yelled "Stop being an asshole you assgole!" he's clever. When we got there Leo and I decided we wanted food/drink. So we took Nick's money and some of my money and got fries & sprite. Then we had to get ketchup. I put some on the tray but nooooo, Leo needs more. So we got a shitload of ketchup and 3 packets of salt. We sat down and Nick poured too much salt on the fries. So before I ate any I had to pick it up and wipe salt off, then wipe it on him. We all agreed that it's gross to put salt INTO your ketchup. When we were done eating/talking about cooties, we poured 1.5 salt packets into all the ketchup that was left. It was really gross and so we decided we'd make a movie that starts out like a horror movie, but ends up being a love story about Leo falling in love with the ketchup/salt and leaving Nick for it.

Then we walked back and I left.

I was awesome!

Band practice is tomorrow, which will be totally awesome as well. But so many memories of Porkrind live in Nick's basement. I'll have to try hard not to cry.

:'(

xoxoxo

-Izzy

When you look with your eyes, everything seems nice.

Okay, so here's a little summary of what I did today. It was a good day.

7:15am to 8:10am- Wake up and be annoyed. Get online for a minute, read horoscope. Then go to the bus.

8:20am to 9:25am-Get to school, chat for a minute, then go to gym class and play Friz-stravaganza whish I suck at. My whole team knew I sucked because 2 of the 4 times I had the ball I passed it to the other team. But we still won.

9:25am to 10:30am- Go to Holocaust class. Be bored. Hooray?

10:30am to 11:30am- Go to Algebra, it was a free day so that was awesome. I talked to Lauren and read her badass comic-y thing. Listen to iPod, etc.

11:30am to 12:30pm- Spanish class. Oh my god. So much fun. There were only 12 of us, and ms. Roguski wanted us to play this stupid shit game. We were like, dude, we don't wanna. There's fuckin 12 people here. So we argued until we got a work sheet. I actually learned something today. Every time we laughed, or got an answer right, I think Ms. Roguski died a little inside. :)

12:30pm to 1pm- Lunch. It was okay. Lots of people were gone so it was kind of boring. But that's okay. I was happy.

1pm to 2pm- Go to science and have a fucking fabulous time. Cemecia was being a freak and I was getting kind of pissed, but when I think about it, it was hilarious.

2pm to 3pm- Geography. Boring. Blah. I don't care.

THEN: I went on the bus and to Nick's house. We had to do surgery on Porkrind then he died (see blog below). So we were in the forest and Chloe went away with Nick, and Madeline was "distracting" James so Leo and I could run the tree away because he wanted it on fire. So we got back from that and Leo climbed in this tree. We were just hanging out and talking while he was in the tree. Then some certain PEOPLE were making out right in sight and it was gross. Then Leo threw bark at me and hit me in the nose, so I threw a can at him and missed. Then did it again and hit his ass by accident and he started making this loud scream/cry noise. So Chloe comes over, and we got pop and then I went home. Yeah. It was really really really really fun. Lot happened in between but it's way too much to type.

I had a good day :)!

And, just so you all know, Nick sucks now. Not Leo.

Whitney won ANTM and it was fabulous. She's awesome.

I got the Shoe Shiners CD at Cheapo.

The names for the one baby that's Jack's are; Yonsen if it's a boy and LaQueesha or soemthing if it's a girl. Hahaha. Badass baby. xD

Loveeeeeee

Izzy

:((((((

Tragedy struck Nick's house today when our dear and beloved Porkrind passed away on the operating table. He suddenly stopped talking yesterday at 3:15pm. Today he was in for invasive/exploratory surgery to figure out the problem. After it was too late, it was discovered to be only strep throat from too much making out with a good friend, Leo Vader. He died because of having some of his major organs pulled out and broken by accident. This doctor is a mad man. Then Izzy got squeezed and cried on by Leo and Chloe. He was buried in the forest next to a pine tree which grew into some other kind of tree. The funeral was amazing, he was buried with leaves and sticks, and even the Atlantic Ocean was crying. Chloe wrote a poem for him, along the lines of "He was a bear. He had a heart. I was gonna rhyme that. He liked things. Things liked him. A lot." 
The mad doctor who killed him is still on the loose. Watch out.
So, please, a moment of silence for our dear Porkrind the panda. There is so much he'll never get to see. His last words heard, were infact "Leo sucks." Which is now untrue because Nick sucks.
R.I.P. PORKRIND. We will all miss your burnt self.

Love, your people.

Start the transformation...

I'm watching Americas Next TopModel. I think the finalists will be Anya and Whitney. I know Anya's in, but I'm not sure who's next. I'll know in a minute. I think I'm wrong.
Ahhhhh stressful minute.
I WAS RIGHT. HAHAHAHA. I WIN!!!!!
I think Anya's gonna win the whole shit. I like her, but she's sort of stupid. That's okay.

Today was fun. I hate my Algebra teacher, she's a totaly bitch to everyone. Most importantly, she's a bitch to me. Lunch was so damn fun today. We messed around with Porkrind. He's so cute. But he stopped talking after 6th hour!!!! Maybe he's just sick. I think he's just got a sore throat. I hope. We'll do surgery tomorrow if needed. I can try to do it on my own, but that kind of scares me cuz I might totally ruin him forever. I <3 PORKRIND!
And after school and went with Zoe to pick out new glasses. We picked these badass black and red ones with no lenses on the bottom. We made sure they looked good when she was making a face, because that's important in her situation. She makes faces a lot. Hahaha.
Tomorrow is band practice again. Should be tons and tons of fun. I was supposed to give Porkrind back to Chloe at the end of the day, but I didn't see her at the end of the day. Pretty sad. For her. I'm happy that I still have him, because I love him.
Oh shizz, the girls are walking runway in a versachi (Sorry, I have no idea about spelling the weirdo names of designers...) show. They're all "OMGZZZZ IT IS SOOOO SCARY." It's like, suck it up and go out there and kill it. Be a beast.
I have homework to do, so I'll be back on later when I should be doing it.
Ahhh I ate too much pasta. Damn it. Now my stomach hurts. *cry*
Oh damn, tomorrow people get to go to Valley Fair and the zoo. But not me. Damn my stupid class. >:( Oh well. Have a fucking fabulous night!!! <3

xoxo
-Izzy loves Porkrind

This is how I feel right now.

I see their pictures

and read what they write

the things they say to each other

and it hurts like hell

because I know we could have something

but it'll never happen

Are you hearing this?

...

I'll just let William say it:

Attention! Attention! 
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
If only, if only for one second.

This table has taken a turn for the worst.
Rock bottom, and over the edge.
well, it's not like it hurts that much anyway.
Upside down and inside out
When I leave here I'm going alone.
Well it's not like it, not like it hurts much anyway.

Attention! Attention! 
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
If only, if only for one second.
Will you hear what I have to say? 
Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell?
Due to the fact that we could have something that'll never happen
Did you hear what I have to...?

This balance has weighed out our hearts’s desire,
I’m trying to make it alone.
Well it’s not like it hurts that much anyway.
Upside-down and inside out,
When I leave here I’m going alone
But I’m dying, I'm dying, to touch...
And it’s not like it, not like it hurts much anyway.

Attention! Attention! 
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
If only, if only for one second.
Will you hear what I have to say? 
Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell?
Due to the fact that we could have something, something...

Attention! Attention! 
May I have all your eyes and ears to the front of the room,
If only, if only for one second.
Will you hear what I have to say? 
Oh, did I mention when I see you it stings like hell?
Due to the fact that we could have something that'll never happen
Will you hear what I have to say? 

Attention Attention
Upside-down and inside-out
Attention Attention
Upside-down and inside-out

I don't know what's right, or what's real.

I'm listening to some of Lily Allen's new stuff. I wish I could say that this song is the situation I'm in. It's so much easier for things to end less painfully when you can be mad. I could say so many things about how I feel right now, and damn, that would be a mouthful. :\
I don't like it when I have to be friends with someone in the situation I'm in. Well, he's happy. That's what matters to me [for the most part].

Anyhow, House was amazing tonight. Totally epic, awesome, best episode all season.
Tomorrow is band practice, and I love that. As long as things go okay. The thing I fear the most is pretty much not going to happen. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
The days just continue to be interesting. Each one is so terribly different from the last, but they never fail to be insane. Insanity!

It's so weird to think about doing anything different than I'm doing now. Not writing music, going to practice, talking on the panda phone, going to lunch, going to school day after day, falling for all the wrong people, then the right one, and having it messed up. I can't imagine my life being any different from the way it is right now. As insane as it is, I love it. :)

Gah. This is insanity! I like Lily Allen's new stuff. Two new songs are on her myspace. The second one is my favorite, I think. But the titale of this is from the first, so that makes me a hypocrite in a way. lalala. Blogs are totally fun.

What can I say?

xoxo
-Izzy

I was born to the elvin...

I got home from school about 40 minutes ago. I had a pretty good day. Everyone was really happy and hyper and peppy, surprisingly, because it'd Monday.

My favorite part of the day was (as always) Lunch. I hung out with Denzel, Victoria, Jason, and Briana. Then some people came inside (Zoe, Leo, Paul, etc.) and it was a big party! Denzel was laying out out his idea for the Orgasmagun. It's a genius idea, I think. Basically, when you get shot with it, you have an orgasm.

All of lunch we were basically being gross. It was awesome.

I made a list of some of the most impactive music videos that I've seen. Maybe I'll post it at some point, but I'm too lazy too go get it right now.

I can't wait until summer. I'm itching to get out of school for a long long while. No homework, no projects, and tons of free time!!!!! Warmth, and swimming, and biking, and plays, and road trips! Funfunfun!!!!!!! I'm totally happy about summer coming soon!

I hope everyone had a great Monday like I did. It's a rare occasion, so cherish it.

And remember, when opportunity is calling, pick up the phone. Hahaha.

PANDA PHONE!

Annnnd, House is on tonight, at a new day & time! (fairly new) 8PM ON FOX9 CENTRAL TIME! YAY!!!!!!!!!

xoxo

-Izzy

The question is do, or die?

Things that have happened today:

-The guy I like is no longer avalible
-Parvarti won survivor
-James got the $100,000
-MY SISTER IS ENGAGED. Oh my god. I cannot believe it!!!! I am really super happy for her. Her and Josh are super duper adorable. ^.^
All of that made me forget about the guy I like being unavaliable. Really, I'm just happy that he's happy. For the first time ever, I'm happy that the guy I like is happy with someone else. I'm not sure what that means, but he's sweet as can be and should be with who he wants. Even if it's not me. :) <3 <--- tbqh that looks like boobs.
Today has been pretty intense (like the circus) and I don't even know how to process it.
My songs are going good, but my voice is kind of funny because I have a cold type thing. My throat is not happy with me singing a lot, sadly. I sing all the time.
I'm not dreading school, like usual. I'm sure this is going to be a good week. I feel good.
But now it's time for me to get going. To be continued...?

xoxo
-Izzay is really happy!

All my life I've been searching for something.

I need to learn to stop being so damn obsessive. Honestly.

I tie myself up into knots for people, and 99.9% of the time it's not even worth it. I hate that I do that. It's really irritating, and a difficult habit to break.

As of right now, I'm re-discovering my undying and unbreakable love for The Academy Is... They always make me feel better, no matter what. Especially today. They're helping me keep my head high lately. I had a long absence from them, because I was listening to other stuff, but god, I love them so damn much. Seriously, in my mind, they've made their way to being tied with MCR. And if you know me, MCR are my most favoritest (I know, bad grammar) band ever ever ever, but TAI have caught up to them. Insane.

Things have been pretty crazy lately, with school, and music, and boys. Stupid boys that I love so much. I love them though. It kind of makes me seem like a creepo. But that's okay.

Oh, I forgot to mention, the guy I like, not so available anymore. but for some reason, I don't mind. I mean, I mind a little bit, but I'm not totally crushed or anything. Like I'd normally be. If this were me acting like I usually do, the whole world would be at an end. But it's not. Everything is fine. I don't know, it's kind of weird.

So many people are getting to blogging, it's insane. I find it pretty darn funny though. I've been obsessive about blogging for almost a year and a half, and people are just catching onto the fad right now. I think that's very funny. :)

I decided I really like the band Flyleaf. The lead singer, Lacey, is an amazing screamer. (Go on Youtube and search up "I'm so sick-flyleaf" and you'll hear it) Plus, watching videos of them live, they're such vibrant, animated performers. That's a really good skill to have. They're the new Evanescence, I think. I actually heard a new Evanescence song that I really like. It's called 'The Last Song I'm Wasting On You" and I love it. It's really sad, but I get it in my own little way. I'm rediscovering the reasons I like Evanescence as well as TAI. 

It's been an interesting week/2 weeks. But things are going okay. :) 

xoxo

-Izzzzzzzay!

We met them early in the morning

Hellohello.

It's 11:12pm, and tomorrow is Mother's Day. I think I'm going to write something for my mother.

I'm totally falling for this dude. He's really really amazing. Yeah.

I'm really bored right now and feel like writing, so alas, here I am. I'm working on two new songs. I think the one I hadn't planned to be a song is working out better. I'm not liking the other one so much. But we'll see. I'm trying so hard to not make them sound too generic, and when I try doing that, they end up sounding bad. *shrug* So I try to let it flow and do whatever sounds good at the time. It usually works pretty good.

my dad is making sexual jokes. Oh dear...

Anyways!

I really want to make a video. Just about whatever. I haven't really worked on a video in a long time. I've thrown a few things together randomly, out of pure bordem, but I really want to work on a project.

Lalalala. Maybe more later.

<3xoxo

Maybe it's Lupus...?

My blog keeps moving around, I apologize.

I think I'm going to stick on Blogspot for a while. Nobody cares about myspace anymore, and Facebook only has Notes, which are not even close to as good as a real, working, blog.  I am such a blog whore. I ate tuna today. I don't really even like tuna. It's kind of gross-ish, but sometimes I crave it so bad. I had kind of a shitty day today, which sort of sucks, and not much is making me smile. I'm watching to new House episode that I missed. It's pretty good so far. I love it. A lot. Hugh Laurie is one of the greatest actors ever. I'm working on three new songs, and I hardly like them. It just makes me feel better to let out anger in music. I love how I can write something on a piece of paper, and then see it come to life into a real song. O shit, the dude's kidneys are failing! That's never good. If your liver fails you turn yellow, you know. That's weird, right?? The cut throat bitch is a really stupid jerk face. Whyyyyy is she so mean to Wilson? I like him! He's really nice.

I'm supposed to be babysitting. But I decided to sit in my room and watch House. I should go hang out with Liam. That'd be nice of me.

Gah.

After this episode is over, I will.

:) 

xoxoxo

-Izzy

Well, this is interesting...

Why would someone be jealous of me?
I'm always joking around, talking about how great I am, but do you think I really believe that?
I don't, for the most part, I think I'm kind of a fuck up, but I roll with it. I don't try to do things good, I don't. I've become this person, I didn't mean to. I do the things that I do for no reason other than personal happiness. I wish I could help people do that. I swear to god I don't try to get in the way of people.